So Wayne and I planned a little date night. I was looking forward to it. This week had been hectic and stressful, so dinner and a movie sounded fun and relaxing. WRONG!!!! I couldn't have been more wrong.
Started by dealing with my pain in the ass sister on the phone on the way to drop Branden off and grandma and papa's. Here I am trying to do something nice and help plan her a bridal shower and she wants to be a b****. I am so tired of people. Forget it I don't need the stress and I don't want to deal with her and her wedding drama. Talk about a mess. I get to mom and dads and she was there huffing and puffing around. Slamming shit around and acting like a child. I am so glad she left. I hung out for awhile waiting till Wayne got done at the gym.
Movie time finally here. Thank goodness. The Ugly Truth. Previews looked super funny. I was excited. TILL we walk in the theater and I recognize a couple of people who hang with Chris and Cal. Yeah, I said it. The unmentionable people. I always fear going places cause we may run into them. This was exactly what happened last movie date night. But it is an early movie and they never do early. WRONG again. I turn and there Chris is in the ticket line. I tell Wayne and we go into the movie so we won't have an awkward moment. I keep getting MORE WRONG. SHE walked into the same movie we were in. WOW almost 4 months of this you would think I would not feel this way. WRONG again. This is the first time I have seen her since.... We were 2 rows back. You know, the first people you see when you walk in. Yep that was us. NO WAY they all didn't see us. I can't imagine the day we actually have a one on one encounter. If it is this bad for me just to see her. I hope that day never comes. I have NOTHING to say to her.
Right then and there the night was RUINED. Gets worse, the guy that sits next to me smelled like a carton of cigarettes. How does someone not know they smell that bad?? I don't get it. Every 3 minutes or less, it was like I was slapped in the mouth with a cig. The smell made me want to puke the whole movie, right along with my nerves. Asthma+ cigs= cough/hard time breathing. LOVE IT!! Finally movie was over. It was good. Even though I didn't enjoy myself. We snuck out the back entrance of the theater. Glad that was over.
Now for Red Lobster which has been sounding good for days. We get there and I can't even think about the food. My appetite was not agreeing with my nervous stomach. I just knew they would show up there too. That is my luck. So I was on alert the whole time. Watching the parking lot like a stalker or something. Wayne and I talked very little but I am very emotional so that was not good either. If I talked about it I started to cry. SO I ended up hanging in the Red Lobster bathroom having a breakdown. I composed myself and came back to eat. We ate and left. They didn't ever show. BUT the anticipation of what might happen was enough to drive me crazy.
We then went back to pick up Branden from my parents. Branden was laying all relaxing on the couch watch tv. We got ready to leave and he was throwing a fit cause he saw the tooth brush in the bathroom and wanted to brush. I told him we would when we got home. NOT good enough. So he grabbed mom's bag balm tub and handed it to her. WHY? I don't know. I told her not to open it cause we were leaving and I didn't want him greasy and lube..... and guess what? SURPRISE, SURPRISE!!!! She didn't listen. She opened it and he scooped a huge wad out. Ok so with the night I had I watched to kill her at that point. As he is putting in on her, I said, that's enough we gotta go. NOPE wrong again on my part. She gets more shows him where to put it and then puts it on his legs. It was late, I was tired, crabby and tired of everyones shit for the night. I grabbed him and was ready to leave. Then here she comes as always. Can't hardly get out of the door cause she won't stop with hugs and kisses. He didn't want them and I had had enough of her. Yeah, maybe mean on my part, but I am so fet up.
I buckle Branden in and get in the passenger seat ready to go. WRONG. I forgot we drove seperate. I had to drive home cause wayne had his truck there. I just wanted to sit back and relax on the way home. I got out and walked around, ready to go to bed. Well Wayne goes to tell Branden he'll see him at home. HERE came the fit throwing. NO Daddy, No daddy. He wanted to ride with Wayne and Wayne was just as mopy as Branden. I said take him. If it bothers you that much take him. He is tired and will fall asleep on the way. OK settled the boys head to wayne's truck and i start to pull out of the driveway. Here Wayne comes hollering something. I stop to see what he is say. "Branden says he wants to ride with you now" GREAT. Put him in. Changed his mind AGAIN. Now wants to ride with Wayne. Ok my patients level is non existant. I told him to take him and if he cries he cries.
HOME AT LAST!!!! After venting to Anna the whole drive home I am ready to crash. 2:30 AM WIDE AWAKE!!! Heartburn, backpain, cramps. I LOVE IT. It is now 5:30 in the morning haven't been back to sleep. Watched tv, listened to the storm, visited with some friends online that were awake. TIRED,TIRED,TIRED. Can't sleep. The radiating pain wont allow my body to relax and get comfy. Branden has woke up crying a couple times. I think it was from the thunder. So I went in and checked and got him back to sleep so Wayne could sleep, even though he is laying right next to him. That is a WHOLE nother thing.
I just had to get on here and vent and let it all out. It seems that it is never ending with me. I just don't get people. Best friends one day and now this. How do you talk to someone EVERYDAY for years and then just crap on them. She has become this person who I have no respect for? I don't get it. Man I am glad my eyes were open to it. Someday I hope she realizes what she has done. I just wonder if it bothers her as much as me? I know, I know. She has the control as long as I let it get to me. BUT, it's hard to let go. I am so glad Wayne is here by my side and has my back. For awhile I wondered. But I think he sees her true colors now too.
I am gonna go try and sleep in Branden's bed. Maybe it will be comfy enough for me. I don't think he'll mind since he isn't using it. Baby in belly is kicking like crazy. He better go to sleep for me too. Thanks for letting me vent.
Saturday, August 1, 2009
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I'm sorry you had such a crappy date night. I know it is hard, but just keep reminding yourself that as long as you allow her to control your emotions, she is winning. It's hard to not feel those things when you see them because all that pent up anger and frustration and feelings of betrayal come to the surface again. It doesn't help you are prego and have all those hormones and emotions to deal with too! Just take a deep breath and tell yourself, that you have a great family, Wayne, Branden, and baby Partridge love you very much, and you don't have time for other peoples childish, immature ways and wash your hands of the "unmentionable people". I've had to do this myself with some people I thought were my close friends. Turned out....they weren't who I thought they were. You have a great group of friends who care about you and value your friendship. Focus on those friendships, not the broken ones. People come in and out of your life for a reason, and although you may not see that reason right away....there is a reason and you will learn and grow from it. Trust me when I say this.
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by the way....when are you going to post your news about the sono??? I've been waiting to see it on here!
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